aya had everything she wanted. more than everything. she had the whole world and it’s extra parts. at least, that’s what everyone else saw. she didn’t have to imagine the stares she’d get walking down the hallway. her eyes scanned every other person she’d see, a smile as bright as the north star, their eyes either terrified or longing. she was never sure nor cared if anyone else had resentment towards her, but she did care if she seemed normal.
insecurities, was it? something she’d try to hide if she were in a room full of nobles. not something she thought to understand. there’s a fractured piece in her memory where she can feel normal. flashing images of a genuine smile and a swing set. it all turns dark and horrific. she’d close her eyes and block out the memory again.
perhaps she needed a friend? it’s not like she could point out any here. these people seemed to be intimidated by what she had, rumors of the ‘rich girl who made friends with even the worst of your enemies.’ these rumors weren’t untrue, but she could argue that she didn’t make any enemies. it’s intentional to keep up appearances. she turns the corner into an open cafeteria. there were many friend groups. she’d usually sit with the cheerleaders. if anyone knew her closely, even in the slightest, it was them. but they were just as shallow and two-faced as she was. they pretended to care and then forget the information in order to memorize something more useful. maybe she wouldn’t sit with them today.
her eyes wander to a lone table. it was empty. near the outside doors if she needed air. if she sat alone, there was a guarantee that some bottom feeder ( as the cheerleaders would call them ) would come near her to say hello. she always greeted others with such great hospitality, there was no way that she’d be ignored. this time though, she was actually looking for a friend instead of being polite. she sits down with her bag. a packed lunch. she scans the room.
the cafeteria is full of people with different personalities. these people sometimes told her their secrets but would never speak to her again. she wasn’t sure why they were so open to her in the first place. maybe her intimidating position was centered on those rumors again. maybe these people felt like they knew her. she catches eyes with a stranger, a smile, she breaks eye contact. her lunch isn’t going to eat itself.
bella swan played on a middle ground, something stuck between a lower and higher level of level-headed consciousness when it came to the basis of reality. she walked among people, no longer feeling like a person. and walking among anything but, she felt like a text-book definition human. so, what line did she walk? with an irrevocable disconnect with those she could once play friends with, and those who she’d tied her heart strings too now gone, where was the line? she asked herself this day in and day out, and that’s what seemed to haunt her, much more than the reasons that manifested among the crowds in school. the quiet peace in her life seemed disrupted now, despite how much silence followed her.
and some days, she could be okay with living solitary – and on some other days, it ate at her gut and bubbled even some spurts of anger within her; bitterness, for what came to be tainted, and for having no one to eradicate it. the least she could be thankful for was that some people don’t know about it, and the more popular crowds didn’t quite seem to care enough for her to regard any difference in her comings and goings. at least, she’d like to think so. but she did need a friend. something of a friend. the need for it most definitely stronger than her desire to put the effort into making one. could she maintain building on lies? – she tells herself they’re not lies if you just don’t say anything about it.
her group was always small, and never singled out by any definite trait, which made them always able to blend into the fit of crowds within the school to spare themselves being too important, or too unimportant. eric, angela, mike, jessica – to name a few of who remained. she see’s them all the time; unavoidable. and it’s not that she knows she’s not welcome, but she knows she’s isolated herself too far already to return. at least when she sees them in the cafeteria, she can spare a small wave – usually directed to angela – before she moves past them to pick a seat.
fairly, it seemed like a busy day; she can say this, because there’s no completely empty table at this point, spare one with all it’s chairs gone to support the mass of people crowded at the one beside it. ah. – bella locks gazes with one of the girls sitting there, alone, and catches her smile and she mimics it back, and before she knows it, she’s walking up beside, digits pulling back a chair with a squeeeeeeeek.
❛ – hey, do you mind? ❜ she begins, sitting as she pulls her backpack onto her lap.
one thing or another clicks, because really, this school was too small for anybody to really be a stranger. it surprises her to see aya not sitting with the cheerleaders, or maybe anybody else with some social status; these assumptions could be derived from talks she hears up and about, but reminding herself of it all, she works to tell herself to form her own impressions before projecting anyone else’s onto the girl.
❛ it’s aya, right? – bella. if you didn’t know. ❜
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RULES, LAWS, IMPORTANT STUFFS.
001. DISCLAIMER.
i am not affiliated with kristen stewart.
this is a selective blog, which means that i will choose who i follow and roleplay with. i am also mutually-exclusive (unless otherwise stated in starters/calls).
this blog is also multi-verse and multi-ship.
the icons i use are credited mostly towards me, hollow-art and two lovely tumblr users: visionisms and banefulbloodstream.
002. GENERAL.
i track the tag ’agnelino’.
do not god-mod, but feel free to make starters that imply pre-established relationships. i don’t have a lot of time to be online, and taking the time and effort to develop relationships is great but it’s more fun for me if i can just get right into it.
nsfw material will appear on this blog. i will tag triggers accordingly, with tw ___. (eg. tw blood)
i keep my following count 250 or under, because a busy dashboard tends to stress me out.
i do not and will not follow or support any rp blogs that whitewash, which is a serious issue in the twilight fandom here. if you're ignorant enough to use some generic white folk for a native muse, then you're just stupid. it's not okay.
unfollowing happens often. unless i really like your blog, ill typically unfollow if we haven’t interacted in a month or more. i’m here to find people to write with, so i move on quickly. it’s nothing personal, and i’m more than happy to go back and refollow/interact with blogs i may have unfollowed in the past. im just really anal about keeping my dash quiet, and following blogs that i’m close to. also, if you don’t follow me back, i will eventually unfollow you too. no point in following blogs who don’t follow me back, since everybody is mutual exclusive these days.
003.INTERACTING.
i do not typically roleplay bella post-breaking dawn. i leave that ending untouched for many reasons. this is a canon divergent blog, which means that i mostly roleplay divergent from canon. read my about or verses page for more information. but please do not address bella as a vampire, or as mrs. cullen, because i will know you haven’t read my rules. if i haven’t plotted very specifically with you, i only roleplay bella as a human. i do have au vampire verses, though, and in these, pretty much always use vampire mythology from other series (the vampire diaries, true blood).
when it comes to rping with other bella’s and beau, it will take very heavy plotting – beau is easier to plot with, but other bella’s ( i will be very selective in following them ), we really do need to come up with an intricate plot before we interact. when it comes to other muses with kristen as an fc, bella and i will not ignore that they have the same face, and therefore, this must take intricate plotting as well. random starters and interactions are very unlikely to happen unless we have talked previously.
shipping is fantastic. i love shipping, it’s one of the best things in roleplaying. talk to me if you wanna ship with me, plot with me, make me a starter — let’s interact and have fun with it. just don’t force a ship on me.
starter calls, plotting calls/posts about plot ideas, and memes are strictly mutually exclusive unless otherwise stated in the tags and such. please do not push me to roleplay with you if i am not following you and please do not hop onto the wagon when i post about certain plots if i am not following you back. my OPEN STARTERS, however, may be replied to by literally anyone, though i cannot guarantee that i will always reply to non-mutuals.
i prefer to only have a maximum of 2 or 3 threads with one single person going at a time, unless we’ve actually talked about having more and i’m encouraged to have more threads with you. but in general, i’d prefer if mutuals would keep it to 2 or 3. if we already have a couple threads together and you like a starter call, i may not make a starter.
replies will come, at the latest, in about a week. but sometimes i’m just not feeling a thread and i might drop it, so i apologize for that, and i’ll try to spark up something new when that happens. but i reply to things at my discretion and my discretion ONLY.
… and that’s that!
thank you so much for reading my rules, it means a lot to me!! and if you’ve gotten this far, you’re an amazin cinnamon roll who should come plot with me.
verses
MAINS.
FANDOMS.
AU'S.
MAIN VERSE.
canon divergent storyline occuring during eclipse. instead of agreeing to marry edward, and after the battle with the newborns and victoria, bella decides to separate herself from forks in an attempt to reclaim her individuality -- as she feels too immersed and too smitten. she leaves town on her own and finds herself in various other places (setting is dependent).
CANON TIMELINE.
this generally sits throughout the actual canon saga; from when bella moves to forks, to after the battle in breaking dawn pt 2 ends. however, i very rarely roleplay after eclipse, so it would take thorough plotting. this verse is just generic to tag threads with, that sit within the canon timeline, though.
THE VAMPIRE DIARIES.
follows main verse. – after leaving forks, bella goes to mystic falls. she’d heard that there were witches there, and she was hoping that she could investigate and inquire about herself and her shield abilities. when she gets there, she finds a lot more than witches. there are many variations of this verse that are set in mystic falls, because it's a verse i roleplay in quite often. it is worth noting, however, that bella's abilities are a prominent presence in tvd verse, because she cannot be compelled and she can walk through magical barriers effortlessly.
TEEN WOLF.
follows main verse, where bella moves to beacon hills. here, she ends up taking an extra year of high school as to integrate a bit better into living there. the supernatural presence in beacon hills doesn't go unnoticed by her, though, and she quickly becomes involved by sticking her nose up several places.
THE 100.
bella is from the arc. she had been dating edward for a while, though she also loved her friend jacob. a fight between the three ended in bella taking fall for things the two boys had done, and so she’d been sent to juvenile lockup. being 17 and being so emotionally exhausted, she didn’t care that much. but then she was sent down to earth as part of the 100. she’s incredibly strong-willed and hard-working, though distances from others. still makes lots of stupid decisions and falls a lot, tho.
STRANGER THINGS.
after leaving her strange world within forks, bella aims to finish one last semester of school while staying in her stepdads home. she has a curious feeling about this place, though, that's for sure.
HEMLOCK GROVE.
exclusive with avegodafrid and bitchofthefullmoon, this verse follows the main verse and goes through all the events in hemlock grove, and after.
HUNTER AU.
following my main verse, after she leaves forks, she becomes even more surrounded by the supernatural and after consulting witches, she finds out she is a BEACON. prompted by others to be taught how to fight, she does, though takes it to the next level. bella starts to figure that this is all she’s good at – bringing in the supernatural, and risking her life for others. she isn’t a hunter that goes after every supernatural being, because she very much considers them good – if they ARE good. she goes on ‘missions’ to hunt and kill the supernatural which are utterly rotten; villains, serial murderers, careless.
PRE-TWILIGHT VAMPIRE AU.
this is somewhat a twilight-related verse, though it could be altered to use other mythology. before bella ever met edward, she was seen as an outcast and therefore targeted by another vampire to use as a 'sidekick'. this vampire turned bella, though she didn't remember being turned and thought that this vampire was her saviour. for years, bella was a nomad alongside this vampire -- and she did kill people, however, with remorse, as much as the other vampire told her it was just what they were supposed to do. eventually, bella learned that the other vampire was who turned her, and becoming enraged and feeling betrayed by someone who she thought was a friend, bella left the other vampire and went off on her own. she became vegetarian, and has been for nearly a decade -- only feeding on animals, she lives alone in a house, where she mostly just reads and keeps isolated. i love using this verse, so i'm always open to roleplaying with it! i'd even be open to plots where somebody rps the vampire who turned bella.
WEREWOLF AU.
this verse will be based around general mythology, though the closest to that will be hemlock grove mythology – where werewolves are either born as one, or become one via a bite or scratch ( this is how bella becomes one ). and they only turn on the moon, though their transformations are long and grueling, involving shedding the skin of a human to become the wolf underneath. bella struggles to cope with this, as the turn is very painful, though she eventually becomes content.
basic information
FULL NAME: isabella marie swan.
NICKNAME: bella, bells, vampire girl.
AGE: between 18-25.
BIRTH DATE: september 13th.
ETHNICITY: caucasian.
GENDER: cis female.
ROMANTIC ORIENTATION: biromantic.
SEXUAL ORIENTATION: bisexual.
RELIGION: athiest.
SPOKEN LANGUAGE: english, minimal spanish and italian.
SPECIES: human, with shield/other abilities.
relationships
PARENTS: renee dwyer, charlie swan.
SIBLINGS: none.
SIGNIFICANT OTHER: in some verses, edward cullen. in most, he is her previous lover, but remains a significant part of her life.
CHILDREN: post breaking dawn, bella has renesmee carlie cullen, her daughter.
physical traits
EYE COLOUR: chocolate brown.
HAIR COLOUR: brown.
HEIGHT: 5"4'.
BODY BUILD: slim, small.
TATTOOS + PIERCINGS: has her ears pierced.
NOTABLE PHYSICAL TRAITS: has a couple of noteable scars; the vampire bite on her left wrist, and a scar on her left forearm from cutting herself to distract riley/victoria.
phobias and disorders
PHOBIAS: tba.
MENTAL DISORDERS: general anxiety disorder.
WHEN WAS THIS DIAGNOSED?: self-diagnosed in her teens, though it isn't severe and she manages most of the time. when edward left, it was most prominent.
personality
INTELLIGENCE: quite high; very observant and particular. very curious about things, and understanding them.
LIKES: reading, summer, junk food.
DISLIKES: cold, wet things. duh.
MAJOR TRAITS: stubborn, suppressive, independent, kind-hearted.
EXTRAS: has a habit of fidgeting.
how is your bella canon divergent?
deciding to focus in on bella's emotional side and her emotional intelligence, i've decided to go divergent with a plotline that pays more attention to those parts of her.
during the events of eclipse, bella had become slightly more distant from edward and jacob than closer -- mostly because of her still being hurt about edward having left her, and how trying to adjust to the fact that everything he said 'wasnt real' is a bit harder to accept. her anxiety increases, but she remains headstrong as victoria is determined to wage a war on her. while facing her romantic feelings for jacob and asserting her love for edward still, she feels frustrated and hollow after the war. her emotions weighing heavy on her, she decides to leave forks to take some time to herself. in no way does this divergent storyline disregard bella's love and care for edward, or anybody else in her life; it's made to develop bella and address parts of her that i think should've been addressed canonatically instead of brushing them under the rug.
bella leaves forks for elsewhere, typically mystic falls or beacon hills, or wherever is fit. this makes me very flexible for verses; i prefer placing bella in the universe of other places.
i also emphasize bella's abilities on this blog; not only do i hold strong to her shield ability to block out any mentally-driven powers that are enforced on her, but i emphasize on her mildly precognitive dreams ( dozens of which happen, canonatically, in the saga ) and their ability to reveal information to her. to read more about my expanasions on bella's abilities, please read this page.
independent and selective canon divergent twilight/tvd roleplay blog for isabella swan. mutually exclusive, multi-verse and ship. oc, crossover, and au friendly.
❛ she defies us all. ❜
written by sam. twenty - est. est 07/2013, revamped 11/2015. triggers will be tagged. please read rules before interacting.
