just try harder.
SHE IS TESTING his patience. he TRIES to remember the last time that he was ANGRY with her ;; he’s too FLUSTERED, overwhelmed by the potent elixir of his emotions ( just WHAT is it that drags RED in his vision? nearly brings SOBS to his throat? he cannot – WILL not – name it ). “ you don’t think that i’m RELIEVED? that i’m not OVERJOYED that he isn’t with THEM anymore? he belongs HERE. with YOU. with his FAMILY. ” he turns away abruptly, a DELIBERATE attempt at holding his tongue. there is too MUCH rattling his brain, too much of his OWN thoughts burying everything else. “ you weren’t THERE. you didn’t SEE him or … or HEAR him. he LOVES them, bella. ”
and he doesn’t love ME.
it’s a rarity to see edward so riled – it resonates concern, even throughout all her vexation. a part of her craves to approach him, rest her head against his back and find her own PEACE. but there is a need for this conversation, one she can’t give up on because her MIND is too exhausted of the conflict. ❛ —- i know he loves them. ❜ her voice breaks, ❛ i KNOW that they stole parts of him from us that we might never get back. i’ve seen his memories, and it fucking hurts. and i keep wishing i could cry about it. i just – ❜ in her brokenness, she still approaches him, pale fingers curling around loose fabric of his shirt as her forehead presses against him. ❛ i don’t know why you exclude yourself from the picture. with ME??? with YOU, too! he belongs with US. no matter how he’s placed the roles of others in exchange for you —- you’re his dad. i remember the way you used to look at him, and him at you. ❜ eyes shut. ❛ please, edward. i know he still loves you; he WANTS you to TRY. he needs you to make up for lost time. and i know you love him, too. you GOTTA. he’s still our son. he’s still our baby. i can’t stand to see things break more than they already have. ❜
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